It's been 11 months and it seems a bit strange how time has flown by... life, in many ways, does not feel any different from when Chris was still here... I've been basically raising the kids on my own since they were born... still having the same fights with Hannah before taking her to school... listening to the same whining and crying about everything and nothing... I kept hoping it would get better... that I could somehow get her to just calm down and do what is necessary to get out the door in the morning so we can all be where we're supposed to be on time... I guess that is one that may never change... maybe the drama allows her to feel as though nothing has changed...

I also talked to Chris' sister today... she is the only sane one of the lot that I still care to talk to... I almost have to laugh because we can have a mostly normal conversation while skirting the proverbial elephant in the room... I'm glad that she's finally seeing someone about Chris... it's easy to forget that we're not the only ones who lost him... that she lost her buddy... I wish her the same peace that I have found... it's hard to get there but it is there...