I had promised Hannah that I would finally tell her how Chris died and so today I told her... I was surprised that there were no tears on her part and that she took it like a big girl... I only gave her the briefest of details, telling her a little about being bipolar and how his brain was sick... she asked a few questions but didn't want to know too many details.... I did tell her that he used a gun but there weren't too many questions about why... that surprised me more than anything else but was a bit of a relief... I thought this would be harder on her but she had apparently heard about it from a friend of hers whose mother did not think to censor her mouth when sharing such intimate details... hopefully this will make it easier for her as she grows... I hope the next round of questions will be as easy as this first round... all in all, it seems to be the best gift I could have given her this holiday season... truth.