Most days I am fine... a bit stressed from all of the kids but for the most part I'm doing pretty well... I've been in a state of limbo about getting all of Chris' belongings because we need to do an inventory of what's in the storage unit... I've mostly been waiting on my attorney to get back to town so we can meet with the other attorney to get the key to the unit... now I have a date... March 13th... I feel a little shaky because though I need to do this, I don't want to... I have yet to go back over to anywhere near the part of Plano that he lived and this place isn't too far from his house... knowing that I now have to go out there and when it'll happen dredges up all of the emotions and anxiety about being over there... it's another event that will bring more finality to this reality...
I know it's been almost 21 weeks since his death and in a lot of ways I have made great strides into reclaiming my life... I had told a friend that just because he took his own life, he was not going to rob me of mine... and I have been having fun and making plans and getting out of the house more often... I have been laughing and enjoying the simple pleasures that life has to offer... but then I get to pick the date that I go to rummage through what's left of his life and it's hard... hard to think that all he left after 32 years can be held in a cold storage unit with some arbitrary number on the door...
What still amazes me is that the girlfriend has yet to turn over his ashes and relinquish what she did not put into storage... she is a real piece of work and all that I can do is let God handle that one... I can no longer put my energy into dealing with her... between God and the lawyers, all that she has done will be returned to her...
I'm just hoping I can manage to get through the last of this and be done with the hassle... if I could just move forward without having to wrangle one more person to get something done would be nice... of course if it were that easy it wouldn't be Chris... even now his actions still impact my life... that's okay... it's almost over...
I know it's been almost 21 weeks since his death and in a lot of ways I have made great strides into reclaiming my life... I had told a friend that just because he took his own life, he was not going to rob me of mine... and I have been having fun and making plans and getting out of the house more often... I have been laughing and enjoying the simple pleasures that life has to offer... but then I get to pick the date that I go to rummage through what's left of his life and it's hard... hard to think that all he left after 32 years can be held in a cold storage unit with some arbitrary number on the door...
What still amazes me is that the girlfriend has yet to turn over his ashes and relinquish what she did not put into storage... she is a real piece of work and all that I can do is let God handle that one... I can no longer put my energy into dealing with her... between God and the lawyers, all that she has done will be returned to her...
I'm just hoping I can manage to get through the last of this and be done with the hassle... if I could just move forward without having to wrangle one more person to get something done would be nice... of course if it were that easy it wouldn't be Chris... even now his actions still impact my life... that's okay... it's almost over...
posted by Sarah at 12:05 PM
1 Comments:
Once the 13th comes and goes I'm sure it will be easier to deal with things after the inventory and everything is finally resolved regarding the property.
I dont understand why the GF has the ashes. I can understand his parents, you or even his siblings, but her? thats just messed up.
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