I kept meaning to write more last night but I got sidetracked... I finally made it over to the new gym and was thoroughly impressed with their facilities and signed up... before my meeting at the SS office, I would never have joined because I would have been too worried about the initial fees but now I can breathe a bit easier knowing that everything is going to be just fine... we got home early enough to watch a little television so I grabbed my electric blanket and climbed back into my leather chair... the next thing I know the kids are waking me up over a minor dispute so I tell them to go to bed and change into my pajamas and crawled into my clean bed... I had made it the night before with freshly laundered sheets and never got in... so I'm in bed wondering if I'll be able to fall asleep without taking the melatonin and then the alarm goes off... it's 6:30 in the morning and I had my first night of real sleep... it must have been the stress of not knowing what our financial situation was going to be... of having to wonder if I'd have to take on one or two more kids and possibly a second (technically third if you count Sunday School) job... my friend, Amy, said that there was a change in the way I looked yesterday, a look of relief that had replaced my worries... and she's right... the hardest part is now behind me and the only thorn that's still in my side is his girlfriend and having to deal with his estate... the law is all on my side so I'm no longer worried that this will drag out and I'll be able to afford the attorneys to handle this... whether or not it would have still worked out this way without all of the love and prayers can be argued but I firmly believe that it has all helped to bring about this quasi-happy ending... these past few weeks have lifted my Spirit and made me so much more aware of all of the people in our lives... the ones we wave to as we pass by in the neighborhood, the ones we see at church, and those that have been in our lives for many years... each and every one of them are so special and dear to my heart... it actually brings tears to my eyes at the amount of kindness that we've been shown and I'll never be able to stop singing their praise...