It's approaching the witching hour and I've done the ultimate bit of public declaration that I could think of... I emailed Oprah's upcoming shows site and coincidentally they are planning on a show about how children cope with the loss of a parent... it makes me wonder how effective I've been in handling the kids and their fragile hearts... they've finally gone back to their own beds and they are smothered with hugs and kisses... Hannah's in play therapy at school and I'm still waiting to see how Jack is processing it... they both get to play at their friends' houses and they are constantly surrounded by people who care... I make sure I tell them every day that I love them and am trying to apply all of the Love and Logic advice since I no longer have to deal with the conflicting parenting styles between the two households... from now on they will only be in the most loving environment that I can possibly provide and do all that I can to make them strong and independent... though they have "a hole on their soul in the shape of their Dad" (to steal a line from an Oprah show on fathers) at least it's because he has passed away, not because he's too busy with his new life to be a Daddy... that's a hole that I can only plug with good memories and strong male role models... maybe our story will be picked up, maybe not, but either way this is a story I have to tell to as many people as I can because it was an unnecessary death...