I guess I should take this as a sign of improvement... my mother asked me how I felt about my upcoming anniversary... what anniversary? Then it dawned on me that my former wedding anniversary was August 19th... I always teased Chris that it was the same as Bill Clinton's birthday, an easy date for a boy from Arkansas to remember... somehow, it had completely slipped my mind... it wasn't even close to being on the radar...I had completely forgotten because my life is so much more in the present and focusing on the future that I am letting go of the past...

I had been struggling with a number of issues for a while but a couple lengthy heart to heart talks with one of my best friends helped put most everything into perspective... we have been having an ongoing discussion on the Laws of Attraction and how life drastically changes when you apply it to your life... one of the things I had asked for was for peace for my soul... total peace from the turmoil that has encompassed my life since his death...
so instead of this Sunday being a sad day to remind me of a failed marriage, it will mark the day that Hannah receives her 3rd grade Bible... I find that much more uplifting... and the peace I had asked for seems to be coming in spades...